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Friday, April 25, 2008

 
之後...逐漸, 身邊另一位好朋友, 漸漸咁冷落左我...
朋友o係唔雖要排位, 因為排位會對身邊每個朋友都唔公平...人始終都有私心...想要係最好ge...
但係會有"距係我同我最有默契" ,"距係最了解我","距係最經常陪伴住我"...
但係...
老實講吖...我感覺到, 自從呢個朋友自己發生左d 野之後, 距變了....
變得更神秘~變得與我地ge距離生疏了...變得唔會好似以前咁同我地share 距ge野...
以上, 我都仲可以接受...
因為我都可以體諒,每個人都有距自己ge秘密, 可能真係有d野唔想, 亦都唔好意思同我講....
不過, 我係好怕畀人冷落ga...尤其係被身邊ge好朋友...
我覺得, 我o係呢個朋友心目中ge位置變得月o黎月唔重要...
le一篇野係係我一個好朋友fd個space度睇番黎ge.....
le篇野入面都講過...."朋友o係唔雖要排位, 因為排位會對身邊每個朋友都唔公平...人始終都有私心...想要係最好ge..."..係係.....咁講係冇錯...朋友係唔雖要係排位ge...那麼做得到每個人都做到好equal 咩???那麼為何每個人都想要最好ge一個le.......想係一個人心目中占重要ge地位le???那樣已經係在排位la......冇最好ge....又點會有最差le..每個人都會為每樣野去排位.......而且每個人ge價值觀都唔一樣....le個係好正常ge一樣野.......我相信係你心入面...我都唔係占重要ge地位...講係講好朋友....我都認你係我ge好朋友..但係係我之前ge.....有eilly同埋cecily......咁我好肯定地講.......佢地係對你黎講係最最最重要ge...正常..因為你地經歷左好多野....一齊ge時間係耐過我.......冇錯...咁相反地...我同nancy ar 琪...仲有班長...識ge時間都係耐.....經歷ge野更加地多......順其自然地....佢地已經係我心目中已經占左最重要ge地位..........你地係其次...咁樣已經睇得出黎係已經排緊位....你都係同我一樣ge情況...我知le d都係我ge想法...每個人都有佢自己所想GE.......佢自己ge諗法...
仲有我想講......我知道我比賽ge時候我掛住sd message.....同埋賽完之後打電話.......果日冷落左你唔好意思...但係我想講因為le一點點ge事情就搞到咁...咁我地所謂ge友誼去左邊ar????難道我地之間ge友誼只係好weak ge一條line 咩????可能係仲有加埋並他因素係入面...我唔清楚........仲有果日點解我會掛住打電話......(算la....都係唔解釋吧la....)
仲有...我想講其實我地之間發生左問題...我係好早之前已經發覺得到.......我更加因為le樣野好幾次喊左出黎....成日都問我ar哥nancy佢地ge意見........點先會搞好我地之間ge關係....ha.....本身仲諗住冇咩野ga.....但係e加始終都係要面對..>fine..<........唔緊要........我都有努力過......可能我努力ge方向錯左.....
我le幾日都係度諗........好朋友ge定義..ha...好傻......好朋友就會因為另一個好朋友變左....神秘左.....唔同你share所有野就會唔係好朋友.....一時好朋友對一個好朋友ge冷落..就唔會再係好朋友..就會換成一句所謂..你對我點...我就對你點ge一句說話???/hahaha...我唔明...好朋友..唔係更加識得去包容好朋友.....學識去體諒好朋友ge咩....一時好朋友做錯左事...就已經不再有回頭..唔會得到for give ge咩???本人都唔知道........可能我都做唔到....
另外...如果我真係冷落左你...你可以罵我...唔洗搞到咁誇張...咁如果係咁樣...我以為都會有le種感覺..咁係唔係我又好似le次咁....搞到咁le...ha.....每個人ge做事方式係唔同ge我知...
..仲有我想講........每個人都會因為某樣野去學識改變自己..更加令自己變得strong....so..我因為果件事學識去獨立...唔想因一d野就去relay on somebody...我好努力地去改變.....我知道..le個係會有相應ge.......一個人好努力咁去做一樣野....另一樣野就會從你身邊流走.....我明.......
ps.人係唔會有完美


Tuesday, April 22, 2008

多事的一天...

琴日太累la..打完波之後...so冇打到xanga....so今日補番......

琴日都幾多野發生la......朝早叫miki起身...佢話車埋我番工...但係結果佢去lo車果時...佢搵唔到佢個仔lo(電單車)...擺明係比佢baby洗走左la....大佬....用左都講聲la..真係過份.....唉........結果我果日遲左2,3個字先番到公司......miki早過我...因為佢搭taxi......

到左差唔多放工ge時間.....ar程suddenly add我..仲add我去個三人conversation度........入面...我只係識ar程...佢個fd就唔知邊位.....好明顯係ar程拉錯人...wakakka..咁都有ge.....但係我都有同ar程個fd傾左幾句...wakakka....勁抵死....佢個fd仲話..可能係ar程想介紹我比佢識.....wakakka.......

跟住就係上wine study 果堂...嘩..個leturer勁惡lo..唔知咩事..我地平時食野都冇事ge..琴日就shit......lo塊好黑ge面話叫我地唔好食lo....洗唔洗咁ar.......

之後到比賽前去左潮管度食面.....今次我想食小小spicy......但係勁spicy lo....spicy到個咀嘴腫左.....勁慘情..叫左野飲都唔夠...仲要係一淡面一淡野飲ga la已經....唉......

咁到比賽....win左..真係...但係有d險...21vs18 ar...開頭輸緊...之後反敗為勝..wakakka...掂ar...


Sunday, April 20, 2008

唉..

琴日自le個wa之後..第一個星期日係訓得最耐ge.....成11點半先起身...唔錯唔錯......已經好滿足ga la.....因為前一日都已經訓左好多(星期六中午3點訓...訓到7點起身食飯.....跟住十點半再訓....訓到星期日ge十一點幾)...真係舒服ar........wakakakakak.........跟住起身睇電視la......跟住火都黎埋...因為部電視有問題lo....跳台.死咁跳台....so.去左online lo......一on line......又係同一樣野發生......ar琪同ar飛又再一次嘈la...點解我每次on親都會咁ga...可唔可以下次有d suprise le.........係開心果隻suprise wo.....跟住同佢地二個一齊傾.....傾到我又火到黎lo....ar琪死咁話佢唔會再關心你..唔會再理你......我頂......咁人地講大話厄你係佢唔o岩...但係佢都已經好有心機咁氹你ga la..係你唔so人ja ma.......最嚴重ge就係lo番之前ge野黎講...真係冇曬野好講.........咁果你真係覺得佢咁仆街ar..咁你仲同佢一齊做咩le..係咩......咁不如散ar...但係我知你實唔制ga..係咪..so....你都係睇定d..佢都話左唔會再有下次lo..咁你咪放長相眼lo...如果佢再有下次ge...你真係要諗下點樣la...知母........???我知ar琪好乖ge........

另外.......le個消息係係星期六我番工其間nancy話我聽ge......我表姐有個朋友suddenly心臟病死左......第一個感覺....唔係ar...講笑ja下話...之後..我好快咁sd個message比我表姐......慰問下佢點樣......好彩我表姐好strong 咁...話比我知冇事ar...咁都好d....仲有就係陳亮由le個遙遠ge哈爾濱落黎廣州玩.......好彩有陳亮陪下佢...佢一定冇咁唔開心姐..........表姐你掂ga.......wakakakka.........


Friday, April 18, 2008

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嘩...睇番最後一次寫xanga ge日子..係三月頭...好長ge一段時間我冇寫過xanga la...咁樣證明左d 咩???第一就梗係我懶la..懶得打字...第二就係因為學校ge working assignment la....仲要係canteen果一部份wo....唔忙就真係假ge......開頭第一個week果時le.....真係好比個心去做ga.......但係都好似個feedback都唔係咁好咁lo.......仲有就係有好多好多野發生左........發生左咩事..就唔好再提la..wakakkaka........so...搞到第二個week都冇咩心機做落去.....仲好似有d hea ge心態tim lo...but anyway....我都做好左自己ge本份ge..........但係係le個wa入面..都學到好多野ge......當然首當其充ge就係.,..切野la...切野我e加勁左la..切c又得...由一舊好大ge野張佢分件又得...得左...真係....諗番起第一次wa果時...個main course要le個冬瓜條...咁落單果時就叫左一條好大條好冬瓜la......開頭諗住睇黎都唔洗我張佢分件..會有d anute會幫手張佢分件..但係結果.....係要我地分ge..咁le個責任就落左係我身上la...因為其他人都有其他野切....我果日真係咁大個女第一次張一條好大ge冬瓜分成一份份..之後再切c lo....真係手瓜都起埋"剪"lo....當時第一個浮現係我個腦ge就係冬瓜太郎(因為諗起西瓜太郎)......第一次覺得自己好叻叻ar.....wakakkaka..........但係我一家唔會再做d咁ge野lo..因為真係切到隻手好痛同好累...叫我切其他野都ok d...但係冬瓜就免la.....切冬瓜就week one ge......week two就最抵死就莫過于d懷舊相la.....我影相d角度真係唔錯......可以向le方面發展.....kekkekekkekekek......仲有jennifer(year3)真係好勁.....好識用photoshop ar.......如果比著係我.....一定唔識la.....因為我係電腦白痴..>.<.........但係總括黎講都ok la......

咁我最後一個week係4月11號......係一個開心ge日子..點解???因為係canteen part finished之外仲係表姐同埋nancy佢地落黎同埋番黎澳門..真係太開心........果幾日都ok la..........但係d時間真係唔夠lo.....行街ge時間都唔夠lo.........我覺得最好都係果餐飯lo.....果間野仲好食過pizza hut ar.......唔錯...仲有個main point就梗係平過pizza hut好多la...wakakakkaka......nancay ar..你地幾時再番黎ar....我知ar琪5月1 會番..咁你le..屎忽.......真係要7月先番ar?????有排等ar...>.<

唉.......16號考完左個statisitc lo....真係....無奈....實炒梗la...唉....真係唔識lo....真係唔掂當ar.....可以又加上自己le排好心散...冇心機讀...,唉..唔得ar....要努力番ar...唔可以再心散落去ga>...<


Monday, March 03, 2008

感謝...

由新年開始......我都已經好耐冇用心打過xanga la....只係前排upload左首歌上去......果首歌仔係對一個人ge掛.....但係e加對我黎講已經月黎月淡la.......係一件好事黎ge........我唔想再係咁唔開心落去.....仲有都冇謂..根本果個人都唔係認真...跟本都唔care 你ge......另外就係....你傷心人地睇到咩...只會令到人覺得你傻ge咩..........仲有就係煩......so時間真係可以沖淡一切ge野......e加你係我心入面已經慢慢咁消失....仲有就係慢慢咁走出你ge影子入面......(你知ma.....同你分左之後ge日子...我每係條街度行ge時候..都會諗住會唔會撞到你......le個想法當時真係好強烈.....)...e加諗番起都傻ge.....好白痴........e加自己個心態都已經好左好多..........點解會suddenly會諗清楚.........因為係我身邊周圍都有好錫我ge人...有mama.....有nancy...有ar哥..有表哥..有ar 琪.......係你地...係你地係我最最最最最傷心ge時候係我身邊.........我記得係16號果日.......得我同mama係屋企......果日仲要係屋企還神..一起身我已經冇曬心機...幫左下mama手....都係目冇表情......結果我mama問我係唔係同表哥嘈過黎...我話冇冇冇ar....我mama仲係問..咁同邊個嘈ar..我話冇ar...但係結果都係忍唔住喊左出黎......之後仲要走埋上訓喊...喊到傻左......仲有果時好激..我係第一次攬住我mama狂喊lo......好彩果時mama係度ja......唔係我都唔知點算....mama話同我一齊去觀音堂ga.....結果我都冇去....之後...都係頂唔住打比nancy..之前ar琪都有sd message問我點樣..我話遲d搵佢.......打比nancy先知佢病左.....陪佢去睇e生..一路同佢講野..我都係喊住咁...真係好辛苦....第一次係咁樣.....出到去之後.......都係個人好累咁.....浮浮地行得.....一路行...有時諗番起都會喊.....之後ar琪join埋我地......去左行陣新馬路..之後打比表哥佢地問一唔一齊出去食飯....之後就去左8佰伴打機...每當我有d咩唔開心我都會去打機......佢地都係麥麥地陪住我.......之後打比佢...因為佢話果日會陪番我.....其實佢係約左我一點幾...但係都打極都冇人聽.....結果7點幾打比佢佢話陪fd.........cut hair........個心酸曬.....但係佢叫我去食飯...就去左.....再見佢.......之後再同佢傾.......我地做番朋友.......好...咁我地就做番fd la......555555.......

le 野都係發生係果一排.....多謝你地多謝..........真係朋友真係最重要...........冇左朋友我都唔知點做好...唔知點起番身.........因為之前個人好似崩潰左咁.....係nancy.....ar琪日日陪我.....有次仲要癲到唱完k去左龍園m記食早餐食到7點(陪同人事nancy & 靜女)///////愛你地=3=

另外再感謝: emily....dora.......靜女.....og........miki....megan...仲有表姐ar.....仲有zenki....你地.....都係.....thx........wakakaka......



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